Mother's Day Weekend

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This last weeknd, Cory and the girls took me to Myrtle Beach for Mother's Day weekend. We met Cory's parent's there as well. We were also "celebrating" their first weekend as Empty Nesters. We had such a great time!! I couldn't believe how brave Katelund and Cloey were. I was scared to death!!! There were jellyfish all over (okay, we really only saw two...but still...). Apparently, they were the kind that don't sting but I was still too nervous to get to far into the water. At least until Cory and the girls decided to splash me and push me into the deeper water.






We left on Friday around 5 pm after Cory got home. Earlier in the day, I was really debating about calling off the whole trip because I was just having such a hard time getting excited about spending time at a beach in a maternity swimsuit that still doesn't look right (but it does look a lot better than me trying to squeeze into my normal swimsuit). I was just feeling so fat and depressed about how I am looking these days. I know that I have gone through it in some degree with every baby, but for some reason I am really struggling with this third time around. I feel like I am not only expanding in my belly but everywhere else too!!! It is making me crazy!! Before I officially called the whole trip off, I called my mom and cried to her about how horrible I was feeling about myself. In true incredible mother fashion, she validated how I felt with her own feelings when she was pregnant with her third and then she went on to tell me how she feels when she sees girls who are pregnant now that she is past that stage. She told me how happy she feels for them and even though it is difficult at the time, it really is one of the best parts about being a woman and mother. I can't even write to you all that she said because it was just perfect and exactly what I needed to hear. In fact, on Mother's Day as I reflected upon the incredible mothers in my life, all I could hear in my head was my own mother as she once again comforted me and made all of my fears and worries disappear.

I feel so incredibly honored, humbled, and blessed to have the title Mother. I know that it is a sacred and noble calling and I feel so inadequate in so many ways as I daily try to fill such an important role in my children's life. Luckily, children are very forgiving and know how to love unconditionally. I am so grateful for my little girls and for how they are constantly teaching me how to be a mommy. In fact, just yesterday Katelund was giving me such an attitude and so I told her to go to her room and calm down (really so that I could calm down). I said to Cloey, "What are we going to do with your sister?" She gave me a big smile, shrugged her shoulders, and said, "Just love her Mommy". Immediately all my frustrations disappeared and all I could feel was an overwhelming amount of gratitude and love for the little angels in my life.