Struggling

It never ceases to amaze me how the Lord works in my life. I know that I have written about it a lot over the years of blogging (wow, it's been like 7 years now), but it has just really been on my mind so much today. Everywhere I have lived, I have had to struggle, learn, and grow in different ways. In fact, whenever I feel like things are going really great, I have really good friends, and life just seems to be perfect.....we move. It is as if the Lord is saying okay you've learned what you need to here, now it's time to get you a little uncomfortable again and teach you new things. So here I am in Texas struggling, learning, and growing once again. Don't get me wrong...life is good and I feel SO very grateful to live the life I do, but there are some things that I have really been struggling with. It is hard for Cory to really understand because...well, because he is a boy, and sometimes boys just don't get it. But, just in the last two days I have felt like the Lord has spoken to me through conference talks I've been listening to and through some good friends (including my best friends aka my sisters). Texas is so different than Tennessee, North Carolina, or Idaho. Each place has such a special place in my heart, not just because of the beauty and uniqueness of the states but mostly because of the people who have influenced my life in each one. I am so grateful to have such an incredible support system. I have so many friends that I feel like I could call up at any given moment and feel like I was just with them yesterday, even if it has been months or years since we were together. Friends whose influence are still so powerful even through a text or blog post. But then there are times, especially lately, when I feel completely alone. Alone in my struggles, alone in a park full of women from my ward who I am trying to be friends with, alone on days when the laundry, homework, diapers, dishes, and demands of life seem to pile up into a never ending to-do list. But, it is in those alone moments when my heart is humbled as my knees fall to the ground and my thoughts lift heavenward. It is in these moments that I am reminded of what's important and what's not. I am so thankful for moments such as these. Moments when the only one who can completely console, heal, humble, and strengthen me is the Lord.