Update

Today I went to my doctor for another appointment. Everything went great and the baby was as cute as a black and white ultrasound baby can look. My doctor said that next month he will be able to tell me the sex of the baby. I'll be dreaming in blue until then. :)

As the doctor was telling me about all of the reports that he got back from my last doctor's office and the hospital, he went on to reassure me that the chances of it all happening again was very small (which is quite a common phrase in my family). He told me that he believed that it was the will of God. I told him that I knew that it was and then he said, "and if it all happens again, then it all happens again." As he said this to me, I felt this incredible feeling of peace. In that moment, I knew that there was nothing to fear. If I lose another child in mortality, then so be it. I know that it is all in the Lord's hand and I trust in His plan for me and my family. The fear is gone.

In other news, I just got finished reading an AMAZING book for book club. I am now reading the 2nd one in the series. I strongly recommend it, but just so you know....it is historical fiction (my favorite genre) and it goes into a lot of detail about the Roman civilization after the destruction of Jerusalem, which was pretty disgusting and wicked (actually it is pretty scary how similar it is to today's society). The series is called the Mark of the Lion. The first book is called A Voice in the Wind. The author is one of my very favorites....Francine Rivers (an amazing Christian writer). It is a long book but it is one where the pages literally turn themselves because it is that good.